better off dead?

The pressure is on, Im having no control over this misery business of studying. I hope everything i study gets right into my head. I cant afford to lose anything now.
It seems like a long time ever since i went out to play, to shop, to watch movies.
Even if i did go out, i didnt quite enjoy myself. I guess the definition of happy is kinda different to me now.
Owning the simplest things make me happy now. I own my loved ones, and my beloved friends.
That's enough though.I have to smile more to myself. Yup yup, I will be overcoming the pressure, the stress because im not the only one suffering (:
We Modesto have to go up together, to become 4MD year2 :D

L'Amour <3

Him and her.
原来幸福永远不属于我。 Because im such an ass, i know.

Im off to chiong elit. Ciaos.