like eh wth....i hate like almost everything nowadays. idk why.
I cant motivation to do anything, go training, study hard whatever. Even a shopping trip turn out fruitless. I wna go away to somewhere far......maybe alone maybe with girlfriends.
I want to get my mood back before stepping back into this current life. It only makes me sad :(
But I cant. When I dont feel like going training, I still have to force myself to 'cause I dont want to disappoint the team, the captain yada yada.. we have high hopes for A'divs...but yet I dont feel motivated! It's like this foreign thing to me... I question my ability my hopes and even my passion. Should I do what I like instead of what I'm supposed to?

People dont feel good when they cant do best out of the things they love. That's what I'm feeling now....

A'div is NEXT WEEK.

(m-fucker.......)

And I have this urge to get a brow piercing or smtg. wtf zzzzzzzzzzz

okay i should be happy since I'm going out later. at least spend some quality time. okaybyez.