overdose of gossip girl (yesss and finally~)

I'm so not pumped about school tomorrow. Results, and all that bullshit coming right back. Life's been like a rush, fast decisions, events coming and going like a breeze. No room to catch a breath. It's our decision to live fast and die young. But throughout the process, did we really try our best in everything? Did we miss out anybody that was once so important that you thought you would die without them? This is like a mad race, throwing everybody and running for yourself. I dont want to be like that. I dont want to throw away my family my friends, the people who are important to me, the people whom I love so much more than myself. People who made life worth the pain, the sadness and all that shit. But somehow, nothing is going to stop people from moving on with their lives without you. And I kinda realise that...those who I had'nt meet up for awhile, I'm sorry. Those who didn't even bother, I do not know what to say. Those who I tried so hard to squeeze time out to be with, are the ones that are so worth everything. Although whatever we always come out with dont succeed, but at least, somehow, we still know that we cared. Nostalgic aint always negative, it brings out the relationships people built over the years and the bond will not be broken, not so easy I guess. School will be school and outside life of school will be a much more fulfilling and exciting one. There are still people I love in school, but I guess, it's the ones that I dont see everyday matters to me as much as school buddies.

I'm trying to get myself exposed to more words,poems and books. My unseen is getting from bad to worse. And I really do need the power to work. Much more exposure leads to ability to analyse and do critical thinking!! I've been too shallow, more thinking please and less stoning.

Labels: friends family nostalgic