I've been thinking alot after promos. I think of..college. Of people. Of Friends. I dont know what

I can do, to save myself out of certain situations. Promos were bad very bad. I need everything to be clear. What do I want exactly? Why am I in college? I hate the life there. Is that really what I want? My friends? My classmates? Everything is a blur. I'm clueless about what I want to do. My head is spinning. Conversations are coated with lies and more lies, blame and more blame. It's getting scary. I once asked my mum about why xx did this and my mum told me that there are lots of people out there who are like xx or even worse. This is how the society is. Nobody can change it. You just have to hope that you wont have to meet with people that are like that.

Okay seriously my head is spinning and spinning. I need to eat some pills.

And carry on with my activities for the day. out and around.